Truth…Beauty…Freedom…Love

I hate to be boring. I hate it when I find myself stuck with the same routine each and every day. I want to feel the excitement and adventure that change brings. However, change scares me most of the time. I guess it is the part that I can actually see change coming. It is the part when one chapter of your life ends in preparation for the next one. As they say,"In life, every ending is a new beginning." A few weeks ago, a friend of mine left for the States. It was sad since what used to be "the six of us" will now be "the five of us".However, I’m happy about it because my friend can now face bigger opportunities waiting for him.I’m sure he’ll go a long way. By the way, I finally got the closure I have been waiting. After all, it wasn’t just a one-sided thing. Let’s just say, I was right about my instincts. I just needed some confirmation. The attraction ( actually I can’t think of a better term) WAS there but the timing isn’t right. I just feel a little bit sad because I only found out when it’s already no use. I feel different now. Things have changed already. Whatever I saw that day I felt the way I did before are now gone. It’s neither me or him, it is just that– it’s gone. I’m happy now. I see things in a different light I guess… New love? None at the moment, but I’m not closing any doors.

I can now officially drive our car— this is the best part of all. But I’m not taking it to school though, unless I can really, really handle all "kaskaseros" and intense reckless driving especially in Manila. See? this is another change! I can and am allowed to drive!

My mom said that she is planning to accept an assignment abroad. Finally, after a decade of stay here in the country, and since I’ll be graduating soon, she decides to accept any offers abroad. As of now, we are choosing among a few options depending on where we can get a better living, and hopefully, a better opportunity for myself. I also heard that my dad is also gonna be assigned to another country. Basically, there’s a chance I might be left here alone. My mom’s target is to be assigned late this year which means we I’ll be left here with my dad. When the time comes that my dad gets assigned, I guess I’ll live with my grandmother? Now that’s a change (well, not quite, since I lived with her for some time in my childhood). I know this might change my life forever. If I choose to leave the country, I’ll be leaving my friends here and the life I had here. Well, that is life. People come and go. Opportunities knock only once so you better grab it before it’s too late. At least, I can get to travel. But it won’t be permanent. I mean, I’ll still come back here. For now, I’m not going anywhere. I’ll just let things happen now and make the most out of it. Life is beautiful.

I’m getting excited about school now. Really… But I am not excited about the toxicity of it. I’m just excited about seeing my friends again, the library, McDonalds, Robinsons Place, new friends,etc.

By the way, Philip, in case you might be reading this, go for the love of your life!!! Haha! Really, I mean it. You might think that she’s kinda out of your league, but don’t you think you can make it an advantage? Let her see the kind of guy I saw in you– The guy who is always there no matter what. Just promise me one thing though: In case you get lucky with your lovelife, and I still don’t, I’ll still bug you with all my love probs and disastrous flirting moves. Way to go dude!— Wasn’t that just too baduy?!?! 

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