Truth…Beauty…Freedom…Love

Sabi nila, every driver has his or her own "banggaan and car damaging experience". un ung: "na-matrikulahan ung driver sa pagmamaneho"– which means na nakabangga ka na. kelangan mo raw mabangga kahit once in your life para ka matuto..oh well, marunong naman ako magdrive, un nga lang, hindi pa ko talga pinagddrive officially.so praktis praktis lang…wala pa naman akong nababangga sa tinagal ng pagpapraktis ko sa driving until today…ang liit kasi nung kalye…sa laguna un, sa subd na tinitirahan ng tita ko at mga pinsan ko. so un, mejo muntik ko lang naman banggain ung parang bakod na humaharang pababa sa creek. mejo sumampa na ung car namin paakyat sa bangketa at gusto ko pa raw isagad hanggang umabot kami at bumagsak sa creek. buhay pa naman ako at ung kasama ko sa car.wala naman nasaktan, nakakafreak out lang na nakakatwawa na nakakahiya..nagasgasan ung car namin…wala pa naman dun c papa..kanina lang niya nalaman nung pag-uwi namin..sabi niya, "nabangga ung kotse?!" sabi ko naman, kunyari dedma lang, "oo nga…" alam niya na un na ako ang bumangga nun…eto pa, we found out na hindi lang pala nagasgas ung car, nabasag pa ung "takip" nung ilaw sa harap nung car…grabe this is big time damage na…tapos may gasgas pa pala ung back nung side mirror…bakit nagasgas ung side mirror??kasi nung pabalik na sa tita ko, maliit ung daan tapos ang weird pa ng mga kurba nung daan. hindi balanced!!! bigla nalang may pataas o kaya pababa pala…so aun na nga, pagkabig ko ng manibela, chuk! muntik ko na mabangga ang isang mini van, side mirror lang naman namin ang kumadkad sa kanya noh!dun na kami kinabahan kasi baka habulin kami nung may ari or something, pero hindi yan! go pa rin kami…hindi naman talga siya ang na-damage- an e!GRRRR!!!

Ewan ko ba kung bakit nagaganap sa kin ang mga ganung bagay ngaung mga araw na ito..kahapon naman, tinono ko ung gitara namin sa bahay kasi gusto ko na sana mag-aral mag gitara ngaung bakasyon. ewan ko ba dahil sa tinagal ko nang tinotono un, ngaun lang bumigay ang isang kwerdas nun!!! Shocks talaga! Nabitin ako dun, kelangan ko pa tuloy magpalit ng string…haaaay naku….

Eto pa nga pala ang isa ko pang pagkakaabalahan. A very close friend of mine is leaving…we’re not gonna see him na…pero malay mo after some time, he’ll visit us here, or we can visit him there! I have to preoccupy myself with our "surprise" thingy for him..Personally, I was thinking of giving him something really special…After all, he’s someone really special… I can still remember back in those days…I dreaded the day he’s leaving. When he confirmed that they are really leaving na, I felt weird…Basta, words are not even enough. It felt like I’m losing some part of myself. I wanted to make the most out of everything..I know we can never be… but things went out of control for me.I hid from everyone what I truly felt, pero things still came out and then went out of hand.I never asked what happened, and I never confronted him about things..It ended before it even began, things were very complicated at that time. Now, things have changed and I got the closure I wanted. However, I can’t just forget the truth that once in my life, just before we left high school, I loved someone. Things keep on changing and I am changing as well..However, I just wanted him to know that he was really special..the end..

Finally, I’ve seen Memoirs of a Geisha, Brokeback Mouintain, and Walk the Line… Astig…I love them all…Best films ever nga… Actually kinabahan ako nung una na baka mapangitan ako, kasi minsan kung ano pa ung award winning, un pa ung weird.Oh well, these are just three of the most talked about films the past awards season. madami pa akong di napapanuod…i am such a big movie buff..Brokeback Mountain, love is a force of nature..yeah, nakita ko naman ung point nila dun sa love is a force of nature dun sa film. oo bading sila, at nung panahon na un, sobrang taboo ang sitwasyon nila…matagal ung film, matagal ang pacing, mabagal, sobrang western accent, pero all in all, maganda pa rin…pinakita dito na, kahit cno ka pa, you need somebody to share your love and happiness, and life is too short…

Walk the Line…Cute kasi like ko c reese witherspoon at joaquin phoenix… i never thought they would work as a couple on screen..a basta, lalo ko cla nagustuhan dahil sa movie na ito. ang galing kasi ung astig ung story nung ginampanan nila, c johnny cash at june carter..love story was great– it can happen and hey wait, it really did!i never thought na mae-LSS ako sa mga kanta sa walk the line, if I have the money, I’ll buy the soundtrack!!! A basta panuorin niyo nalang..pero feeling ko isa lang ako sa iilan na makakakaappreciate dun, kasi ewan, usually kasi ganun. i think i’m the only one among my friends who like these stuff..

Memoirs of a Geisha…never compare the film from the novel– as one of my professors once said..pero this time, i can’t help it, kasi it was like you are really reading the novel while you’re seeing the film..may mga tinanggal na ibang details pero i think ok lang un kasi ung essence nung story and the Japanese Geisha custom, nandun parin. Masyadong detailed ung story, makakaganda un kung novel siya, as a film, ok na rin na bawasan ng masayadong details. Wawa rin kasi ung mga may short attention span..hehe…Ang ganda nung film, talgang based from the novel…may konting binago– ung name ng Gion pati ung Minister..pero sus, iilan lang naman e.. So un, ngayong summer, eto lang ang pinagkakaabalahan ko, pati siyempre ung pagpapadagundong ng musika sa loob ng bahay (sayang naman mga cd ko noh!)…dapat mapanuod ko na rin ang Rent!!! Feeling ko isa pa un sa pagkakahibangan ko na movie e…sige un na muna…ciao! 

"Out Of My League"

it’s her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i’m falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she’s all that I see and she’s all that I need
and i’m out of my league once again

it’s a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i’m falling but it’s no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it’s frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i’d rather be here than on land
yes she’s all that i see and she’s all that i need
and i’m out of my league once again

it’s her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i’m falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it’s frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i’d rather be here than on land
yes she’s all that i see and she’s all that i need
and i’m out of my league once again

I should have gone to school yesterday instead…pero ok narin kasi at least mas marami akong nakuhang classcards ngaun..my grades are good…praise the Lord Almighty! Sayang talga!!!He was there yesterday and my dear friend saw him!!! Wala lang…miss ko na kasi sya talaga! Never ko na sya ulit nakita!!! Actually may intentions ako pumunta yesterday kaso bigla naman akong inatake ng katamaran…naku kung di lang sana ako tinamad…haaaaay!!!!!!!sana kasing bilis ng bullet train ang bus o kaya naging Charmed One nalang ako para nung nalaman ko nakapunta kagad ako sa skul!!! Ang daya talaga!!!!!!!!!!!! kaso nakakatakot din kasi ano kaya ang magagawa ko kapag nakita ko nga sya ulit…Sana wag nman ung exag pati dyahe…dapat may poise parin…harhar…o kaya, wat if by any chance ay mabasa niya ito??? Lagot… E bakit ba?!! nasa kanya namn un kung anung gagwin niya pag nabasa niya ito. A bsta ako, kahit anong mangyari, i’l stick to my game. This is how it is and I’m just showing it…hehe..haay naku makikita rin kita…stalker ako remember?joke lang! sus, bahala na no..magkita kung magkita…kung hinde e di hinde..bwahahahahaha

So here it goes, it’s summer… School is out…and I should be out there having fun (somewhere FUN…)…Apparently, that isn’t happening; but I’m still having fun though… I’m home all the time now and that just makes me reallllllly bored. But come to think of it, after all those busy days and nights that I can’t even eat and sleep right, I’m finally here doing nothing…Oh well…Looking at the bright side of BOREDOM, maybe I’m not really bored at all…now that didn’t make sense! Or I guess it does…I mean, i’m really lazy to go out somewhere.Home is where my kind of stuff is. My cd’s are here, my parents go to the early which means I get to play really loud music so early in the morning…My keyboards’ here..I can do some crazy freestyle whatever on it and no one would even care, my books are here (well not those school books) and most of all, the TV is here…i get to watch those movies I hadn’t seen in a long time, or I hadn’t seen yet…Haha..so there it is…I’ve got things to do at home to "de-bore" me, still, I still crave for something new… something i would never forget that it ever happened this summer…gosh…i must be crazy…

At ako ngayo’y muling nagbabalik mula sa matagal na pagkakahimlay…

Ganito kasi un, mejo matagal rin akong hindi nakapagpost dito dahil sa isang nakalulunos na pangyayari… SUSPENDED ang internet account namin. Pano ko nalaman? matapos ang ilang trial ko ng pagkonek, ayaw talaga. Naisip ko na baka na-cut na nga ang account namin so tumawag ako sa hotline nila…ayun na nga raw, suspended nga dahil sa laki ng excess usage ko!!! dko na sasabihin kung magkano inabot… basta…malaki…buti na lang at d ako masyado pinagalitan ng nanay ko dahil na-shock sya sa inabot ng excess billing namin. Bakit nga ba kasi umabot ang lahat sa ganun? Masyado kasi akong nag-enjoy sa pag-oonline nitong mga huling linggo to the point na halos mag-uumaga na e online parin ako. Actually d rin naman me masyado nag-eenjoy kasi d parin kami magkasalisi sa net ng hinihintay ko.

Speaking of, eto may isa pa akong storya…Nung isang araw ng pagpunta ko sa skul, e lumabas kmi ng aking mga gal pals… badtrip kasi kung kelan ako nakatsinelas papuntang skul e saka naman umulan…kadiri nga akong umuwi kasi putikan na nga ako, may natapakan pa akong gum na kulay green sa bus….eeewww…Ulan…ang drama ng hapong iyon kasi kulang na lang ay mag-MTV ako sa kalye habang naglalakad, nag-iisip, nakapayong at nagtatampisaw sa ulan… Bigla akong may naalala…nakakainis dahil ba’t ko pa kasi naalala un. Tapos may dinaanan kami na isang lugar sa aming paaralan…naalala ko ulet,kasi napatingin ako sa lugar ko san nagsimula ang lahat ng ito. Hindi naman malungkot ung naalala ko, ang saya ko nga dahil naaalala ko un.kaya lang, e ano naman ngaun kasi kung maalala ko?! may magagawa ba ako? wla lang diba…

So ayun na nga, ang buong araw na yon ay nagpaalala lang sakin ng isang masayang bagay (nga ba?). Sayang lang kasi parang hanggang dun nalang din un. Ngayong bakasyon, sa bahay lang ako at sana wag ko naman maalala ng maalala ng mga bagay na yon dahil nakakainis lang. Sa ngayon, iisipin ko na lang na…"it’s not meant to be…" Siguro, nagkataon lang na may isang friendly na tao ang nakilala mo at ganun lang un. Friends. Ganun naman dapat diba?

Hindi naman ako sad…pero hindi rin ako ganun kahappy about it…Pero happy parin ako kasi tapos na ung sem and it ended well for me. I can sleep longer now…I can watch movies and read novels again…I should love this…

O sya, hanggang sa muli..sana magcomment naman ang mga taong magbabasa nito…ehehehehe…