Truth…Beauty…Freedom…Love

sa wakas natapos na ang mga gagawin…pwede nang pa-easy-easy…bakasyon na rin ako sa wakas…kaya lang…mukang mababaliw ako sa bahay…ngaun pa lang kasi parang gusto ko na ulit pumasok…may mamimiss kasi ako…haha…syempre mamimiss ko mga friends at professors ko!!! echos…bakit ganun??? magkakagusto na nga lang ako, dun pa sa parang hindi pwede… bakit hindi pwede? kasi hindi ko naman sya madalas nakikita,tapos pag nakita ko naman siya, dun pa sa time na nagmamadali kami pareho kaya un, d pa tatagal ng 10 minutes.i really like this person…i want to know this person more. i don’t know why i like this person or how i’ve come to like him.i don’ t know how to deal with this.this "feeling" has to go…but i’m not letting it…bahala na…

kanina pa tayo magkasama
umaga na pala,
maya maya lang ay may araw na
kahit tayo'y pagod, buong mundo ay tulog
ikaw at ako,
derederetso lang walang pakialam

kwentuhan lang wala namang masama
oh usap lang, ibaon muna sa limot ang lungkot

tatawa tayo sabay seryoso
unti unti kang nakikilala,
ang sarap sarap mo palang kasama
dati kasi, tahimik ka lang palagi
ngunit ngayong gabi,
parang kay rami mo ng sinabi

... dahil gusto kitang makilala't makasama

umaga na tulog ka na
kay himbing mong managinip
kay sarap sarap mong umidlip
uwi na kaya ako? o dito muna siguro?
samahan muna kita
dahil parang ayaw mong mag-isa

samahan ka, wala namang masama
kung samahan ka,
hanggang lungkot ko'y makatulog din

Somethin’ in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There’s somethin’ in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

I admit that I am not a risk taker. I made a lot of mistakes in the past and I certainly hate repeating them…I can be totally obsessive compulsive over things.I developed this sort of defense mechanism (psych 10???) so I won’t get hurt again by anything or anyone.Apparently it works for me.

However, there are still some things you can’t control…Some things just come unexpectedly. I never thought I’d feel like this again.It feels like I’m back to the old me…I’m being vulnerable again. I hated the idea that I’m preparing myself to get hurt again. It’s not like I’m saying that I won’t get hurt again. I mean…"Gimme a break!!!" I’m not a masochist…

It scares me that at this moment that I’m starting to feel such feelings again, I suddenly become capable of doing crazy stuff…Suddenly, I became an artist— I got the inspiration I lost so long ago…I did this art thing, it was really pathethic but that’s what I wanted to people to see. Now, I write again…I stopped writing about stuff happening to me because I thought nothing was really happening…Until now… What more can I do? Hmmm…I don’t wanna think again about…You don’t wanna know…haha…

Let’s just put it this way, I’m really happy right now…The timing may not be right, or the reason may not be worth it, but…who cares?! It’s not everyday that I feel like this…